“You must ruthlessly eliminate hurry from your life.”
“Hurried people cannot love. Those to whom we are most committed end up getting leftovers.”
The Practice of Slowing
This was a wonderful entry that I made June 19, 2005. Now most people that know me well say I am a very adventurous and passionate person. They would also say I am very high-energy. These traits of mine make me want to go-go everyday. Hence, I can be very spontaneous and eventually hurried. Like the nike slogan of years ago I was the quintessential “Just do it…” person. There’s such little time!
But everyday is a gift. Everyday is a blessing. Everyday is a celebration.
There’s a quote I wrote down that was not highlighted but should have been. It goes, “Hurry is just not a disordered schedule it is a disordered heart.”
What do you do to slow down? Watch tv? Nap? Read? Do you do it enough? For me I slow down when I surf, snowboard, and read to end the night. But I don’t do it enough.
There’s another quote at the bottom of the picture that should be highlighted but wasn’t.
“Solitude is the one place where we can gain freedom from the forces of society that will otherwise relentlessly mold us.”
I found this coincidental that as I type out my last post, this song started playing on my itunes. ITS A MAP!
Here’s an entry I had in my journal for our trip to Turkey with my missions team. It is called approaching differences. We sat through this training because we were going to a country that was predominately Muslim and we were coming from a very Christian country. So to prepare us to make meaningful relationships we were given training.
To the left we have we have two “approaches” you can have towards relationships. Path #1 you are adaptable, trusting, accepting and open. Path #2 you can be suspicious, fearful, condescending, and prejudice. Both approaches will lead us to the “Storming” phase where no matter which way you approach relationships you will feel misunderstood, frustrated, tension, confusion, and embarrassment. Now there are two approaches after the “storming” phase that is called the “forming” phase. You will continue down Path #1 where you listen, observe, ask, and initiate conversations/relationships to correct the symptoms of the storming phase. And this has proven to lead to deep relationships, good rapport and better understanding.
If you continue down the 2nd path and criticize, rationalize, and isolate yourself you will reap broken relationships, alienate and withdraw from conversations and relationships.
This simple little venn diagram/graph/flow chart seems to be an equation, but to me it was good to see this again and realize that life can throw you some hard bumps, switchbacks, setbacks, and forks. Then you can unknowingly become jaded and weathered and start down path #1 to find yourself in path #2.
I would love to end up at some deep relationships at the end of my journey. Time to find my way back to path #1. Anyone re-member how to get back?
Here is something I wrote in 2005 and as I re-read this entry I realized how far I have come and yet how far yet I have to go. As someone once told me, “…the American dream is way too small.” How true it is. I think this entry is a beautiful story of a young man who is in search of the “Eternal wave.” ENJOY!
“I’m here in Mazatlan, Mexico after several days of driving a rental car down the coast. It’s the entire stepping into a different culture = shock thing. Mexico is beautiful although Mazatlan is a resort/beach town so its not truly the real authentic thing. Yet it is breathtaking.
I’m here with my mom and I realize how much I still put my pleasures and leisure before others. How depressing…
I went surfing today for a couple hours. The water is pleasantly warm and there was a constant roll of 2-3 footers with the occasional 4-5 footers. Nice and easy waves not like anything I’ve seen in socal. I want to get better at surfing. The best moment was when I was just floating on my board waiting for the next set with 2 tropical islands to my left and right just seeming to suspend in the horizon as the sun set softly right between the two islands. It was almost like it was off an artist’s canvas. It was a beautiful tender moment which I couldn’t thank God enough for. I had practically the whole set of waves and ocean to myself. How lucky am I?
God, I think I could live like this for the rest of my life. But, God, you know I have to be obedient to you. God you will lead me and I will follow.
As I was bobbing on my board, my legs hanging into the water, I stretched my eyes and neck to get every last bit of that beautiful sunset…no retreat, no reserve, no regrets. Thank you God!”
I am continuing my rediscovery of the long lost journal. I found an interesting journal entry of a “bucket list” of things to do before I turn 25. I wrote this in 2005 so I was a junior in college. There are so many random things that I wanted to do. I have napped on a hammock, I slide down fire poles everyday at work, I have been to Turkey for a short term mission, my sister and I have definitely moved from just being siblings to friends now, I’ve been to Europe with my friends, I’ve been to a Jazz concerts, I bought myself a Harley as a present to myself, I have watched several friends get married and I have climbed Mt. Whitney with a good friend. Just to accomplish those things in the last 5 years is amazing. What a blessing it is to see that so many of my dreams have been granted.
There are still a couple things I have not yet accomplished. I believe I will never be able to float in water. I sink. ALWAYS! I sunk in the Aegean Sea one of the saltiest hence buoyant waters in the world. Learning to make kimchee from my mother is now so low on my list of things to do, but it would be a great gift to learn before it becomes a lost art form. I would still like to surf in Australia one day and I would love to kayak from Norcal to Socal one of these days. But out of the list the one thing I am so happy to see that I’m working on is to be best friends with my sister. That in itself makes the whole bucket list.
As I look at this list I know I could make another list for things I would like to accomplish before I am 35. When I get around to writing that list I will share it with you. In the mean time it feels great to cross so many things off my list but in the big picture I wish I could dream bigger! As someone once told me, “Your dreams are so small in comparison to what God has in store for you. So dream bigger!”
The one item that sticks out to me on my list is #12. I still hope that I will be able to cross that one off my list in my life. I believe this year will be a very challengeing year for myself as I am coming across a very important decision I have to make regarding the direction of my future. I know that sounds very vague but I am still in the process of thinking through and praying about a decision many people would find to be ridiculous and dangerous. One day I will share about that decision publically, but you might have to wait for me to be ready to share that story.
Christmas is only a few days away and we will bring in yet another NEW year. My pastor told us “…wisdom is the gift of connecting dots between a given set of facts that people will ordinarily overlook. Wisdom is the gift of seeing the relationship between one thing and another.” I pray that God will grant me wisdom as I head into 2011 and I will make decisions that are focused on the eternal.
I am an extrovert with introverted tendencies (According to Myer-Briggs). I have many thoughts that are internalized and I never really take the time to think about them and process them. In fact I am too lazy to unpack my thoughts.
My very first journal was given to me my junior year of college. My friend bought a packet of journals and personalized the cardboard cover with clippings from magazines and gave them out as Christmas presents. It was at that same time that I was told that journaling is good discipline to have for reflection. So, I was passionate about it and it lasted me about a good year.
I found it today. And as I read through my entries I laughed at my naivity, I was astonished by the honesty and pain of some entries, nostalgic of special notes I saved. I was even amazed at some of the wise things I settled on and wrote about with passion. (disclaimer:: I am not a wise person so I found these things amazing)
Today, Thanksgiving Day 2010, I am thankful I found this journal. I have not written in a diary since senior year of college. I would like to dedicate these next couple of blog entries to RE-live these past moments and capture all the good things that I was smart enough to save in writing. Hopefully, by doing this I can RE-member and RE-learn the things that should not be forgotten.
P.S. My friend made the journal but I’ll do my best to try to translate the cover.
“I am what I am.” God said this. So I think my friend put it there because faith has been a big part of my life.
Giraffes = because they are the most creatively ugly creatures in the world. Long necks, ugly fur, horns, long ass tongue, and when they drink water they look so awkward because they have to bend so low and they’re practically on stilts. I am fascinated by them. Giraffes are so ugly they are cute.
Stud: Two theories. 1. Because its a 2x4 stud used for construction. 2. My friend was trying to flatter me by calling me a stud. HAH. that friend probably regretted that decision.
Hawaiian Islands = because I love the beach and anything that has to do with the beach. lifestyle, food, surf…
kid = because I love to play!
sport = because I love to play!
music bars = because I USED to play guitar. That guitar hasn’t been played since I last journaled.
“Laughter is the best medicine.” = probably because my friend likes to make fun of my laugh.